Worth While

I NEVER CLAIMED TO be a philosopher.
However, I have thought a lot lately. More than usual. Probably more than I should, and I have come to a few conclusions. I also should not take all of the credit for the thinking I've done lately. A casual game of tennis with a good friend also sparked creative thinking. Now that I've rambled for a few sentences, I should probably get on with my thoughts. Am I honestly making the most of everyday? Do I wake up every morning to set out to make a difference?

Lately, I don't think so. Life, for me lately, has been a little bit self centered, and quite frankly. I don't like it one bit. To feel sorry for myself, and to do nothing about it. Is dumb. And my apologies to those who have taken notice of my selfishness.

At some point every morning, I change clothes to start my day (literally and figuratively.) In summer months, my clothing attire will consist of shorts, and normally a t-shirt (or on beautiful sunny days, a sundress.) But I'm not here to talk about clothes. I'm here to talk about things I occasionally forget to put on. From here on out, I will try my best everyday to put on Love. I won't forget to wear my patient shoes, or my kindness sweater. It's important to me, and it's important for the people I come into contact with everyday. I want to make the most of my days. Doing nothing is not an option for me, because really how much time do we all have left? If I don't make the most of today, what if tomorrow is too late?

I'm done being lazy. I'm ready to be an influence. I'm done feeling sorry for myself because I'm going to a new school this year. And I'm done with being uncomfortable with change. I have come to terms with change lately and I think from now on I'm going to like it. Because life is too short to worry about it.

If God has the whole universe in the palms of his hands, why should I worry about the things to come? He's got everything covered. I just have to go along for the ride. I'm going to a new school for a reason. I'm just not sure what it is yet. I have let go of certain relationships for a reason. Because God has something in store for me that I can't even fathom. It's his plan. And I have a feeling that his plan for me involves spending more time with him, and less time on myself (and my television screen.)

This post feels very scatter-brained to me. But like I said, I'm no philosopher. I've just got a lot on my mind. A special thanks to the sport of tennis and good friends...
.. you bring forth new ideas.

In Joy,

Kandace