Worth While

I NEVER CLAIMED TO be a philosopher.
However, I have thought a lot lately. More than usual. Probably more than I should, and I have come to a few conclusions. I also should not take all of the credit for the thinking I've done lately. A casual game of tennis with a good friend also sparked creative thinking. Now that I've rambled for a few sentences, I should probably get on with my thoughts. Am I honestly making the most of everyday? Do I wake up every morning to set out to make a difference?

Lately, I don't think so. Life, for me lately, has been a little bit self centered, and quite frankly. I don't like it one bit. To feel sorry for myself, and to do nothing about it. Is dumb. And my apologies to those who have taken notice of my selfishness.

At some point every morning, I change clothes to start my day (literally and figuratively.) In summer months, my clothing attire will consist of shorts, and normally a t-shirt (or on beautiful sunny days, a sundress.) But I'm not here to talk about clothes. I'm here to talk about things I occasionally forget to put on. From here on out, I will try my best everyday to put on Love. I won't forget to wear my patient shoes, or my kindness sweater. It's important to me, and it's important for the people I come into contact with everyday. I want to make the most of my days. Doing nothing is not an option for me, because really how much time do we all have left? If I don't make the most of today, what if tomorrow is too late?

I'm done being lazy. I'm ready to be an influence. I'm done feeling sorry for myself because I'm going to a new school this year. And I'm done with being uncomfortable with change. I have come to terms with change lately and I think from now on I'm going to like it. Because life is too short to worry about it.

If God has the whole universe in the palms of his hands, why should I worry about the things to come? He's got everything covered. I just have to go along for the ride. I'm going to a new school for a reason. I'm just not sure what it is yet. I have let go of certain relationships for a reason. Because God has something in store for me that I can't even fathom. It's his plan. And I have a feeling that his plan for me involves spending more time with him, and less time on myself (and my television screen.)

This post feels very scatter-brained to me. But like I said, I'm no philosopher. I've just got a lot on my mind. A special thanks to the sport of tennis and good friends...
.. you bring forth new ideas.

In Joy,

Kandace

Esperar

Esperar = To Wait.

Sometimes, all I feel that I do is wait. Wait for school to start, wait for my break to be over, or wait for my food at the dinner table. However, I feel like it is not a waste of time. Waiting is a very important aspect of life that goes unnoticed simply because we do it everyday. If we are waiting, it means we are looking forward to something. If your day isn't going so well, wait for a good day. Waiting is so important.
I NEVER REALLY considered waiting until today. Because while we wait on things like pizza and our turns to go to the bathroom, we also wait on God's plan and what he has in store for us. This thought graced me as I was waiting to get off work.
As the Maumelle community center pool staff was finishing up our closing duties. A few of us began to talk. Mainly about the birth control we found on the top deck of the pool. The conversation continued on that subject until one of my coworkers interrupted with saying, "Well I think I'll just wait for marriage to do that." He was laughed at. The group burst into laughter and merely assumed he was joking. Ridiculous. We live in a world where this is considered a joke. Waiting on the Lord, and waiting on marriage are key aspects we must abide by. At least in my opinion. Mistakes happen as we get anxious, but it is in no way considered a joking subject.
God's plan is so big. I forget all the time that what He has in store for me is better than anything I can come up with. However, I do remember and realize that I need to wait. Patience is key when it comes to plans and situations.
So today, I encourage patience. I encourage strength. I encourage respect for those who are waiting. I encourage, encouragement.

In Joy,

Kandace

Speak

WOULD YOU BELIEVE me if I told you no one has ever professed their love for me in person? It's true. Never has one male told me they love me in person. It has always been either phone, text, or facebook. This fact has lead me to believe the origin of the term "awkward." If it weren't for technology, we would say everything in person (or letter, we can't forget our fine postal system.) It has also lead me to believe that technology has given us the biggest outlet to back out of any circumstance. Nowadays, we can screen a phone call, not respond to a message, or simply make up an excuse to miss an event. Why? Because the person on the other end of technology has no idea what's really going on. I am sick of this lack of confrontation. Imyself am guilty of this crime, however I believe it's time we fix it. Imagine life if you told someone how you really felt about them right on their front door step. If they saw IN PERSON how honest you really felt wouldn't they be more compelled to agree? I think so. Awkwardness would be less intense if you had the time to talk IN PERSON.

Things were meant to be said. Even when a couple is being married a priest will say, "Speak now, or forever hold your peace." He doesn't say, "E-mail me if you have any concerns and I'll try to get back to you." God created us with mouths and arms and legs so we could communicate and reach each other. God did not make text messaging (although sometimes I believe he did, since I simply cannot live without it, it seems.) A girl cannot be swept off her feet through a computer screen, an arguement cannot be settled through an e-mailed apology. It's time to start saying things (by still living by the "If you can't say anything nice, don't say anything at all" rule of course.) I believe it's the way God intended it. So as an open apology, I am sorry to those I have call screened, text ignored, or unreplied to. I think I'll respond outloud next time.

In Joy,

Kandace

People

Every single one of us is a person. We are human. We were fearfully and remarkably made by our Creator. If you think about, every person is beautiful. Maybe not by human standards, but the reality that every human has a pair of eyes, a nose, and a mouth, yet we all look different amazes me. God can do wonderful things.
HOWEVER, that thought is not the sole reason for this blog. As I sat here on my couch thinking about people, I thought about certain people. We were placed on this earth, and around certain people for a reason. Each person I see has the potential to influence my life (as well as me influencing theirs.) Everytime I introduce myself to someone new, I consider why. Why has God introduced me to them? What things can I accomplish if this new person and I merely sat and collaborated?
WHILE I sat and thought about people. I thought about the people I've come across that were there merely for me to let them go. Although everyone serves a purpose, sometimes that purpose is to realize what your purpose isn't. I've learned from many people what not to do when you're 16, and how to react in certain situations. I love people. I am learning. I am growing.

Man. God is good.


In joy,

Kandace